Extra! Extra!

Great news!

Sometime last week I was on Twitter and on the spur of the moment, I thought what the hell, I'll tweet The Evening Sun, my local newspaper. Here's how it went down...

 

I tweeted TES and said "September is Chiari Malformation Awareness Month! Interested in doing a story?" They replied that they forwarded the message to their reporter, Tim Stonesifer, and that we should connect on a possible story. I said thanks I will contact him. He actually conacted me first, through Twitter. He replied to the tweet "Can we talk sometime this week? What's your interest in this condition?" and gave me his contact information. I then sent him an email with some information. We set up a time to have an interview and on Tuesday, Sept 11th. He and a photographer showed up at my house for the interview. The interview went on for about 45 mins to an hour. I was so worried that I would forget to mention everything that needed to get said. This was my chance to get the word out in this area.

When Tuesday came...I prepared myself by having my laptop out with some websites up on Chiari, along with some folders full of info. (I have several purple folders with Chiari info I've collected over the years, as well as my own info and MRI results) I did my best and told all that I could. I forgot so much and yet said so much. I realize if I were to say everything that could be said, it could probably fill the entire newspaper. He said he'd let me know when the article would be out and thanked me for contacting them.

 

The article appeared online Sept 13th. I was so excited. I was at work when I found out. The next day I hit up my local Rutters, and low and behold...my face was on the front page!!

 

Coco and I - Front Page - The Evening Sun

After all of the rambling above...here is the article! Please read and then share! :)
Living with the Pain

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Finally Answering Truthfully

Chiari Carnival #7 Topic: How are you doing?
Theme: Finally answering truthfully. 

The truth.Well...the truth is at this very moment I am fine. Not just the "fine" standard answer given to anyone in passing. Though it is true that "fine" is given a lot when I am truely not fine at all. It is just easier to say then to explain.

• On any given day I am in pain. I would say 98% of the time my head and neck are in pain. It may not be excrutiating, but it is very annoying. It has become second nature to me. It is a background pain. There is this constant achy feeling at the base of my skull (actually there isn't much skull there at all anymore since decompression surgery) It feels like a constant hangover. Imagine walking around with a hangover 24/7. That may be a good way to describe the "regular" day to day head pain. Loud sounds make me cringe. Some sounds more than others. Lights hurt bad. 
• To continue on my day to day pain and issues....I have muscle weakness/get burning sensations. When I am in the shower my arms begin to hurt from washing my hair.
• Several times a day my arms, legs, hands, feet, and random body parts will get tingly and numb. I have had my lip, eyebrow, thigh, butt, and girly parts go numb at random.
• Balance...it's bad. I can laugh at this though until it hurts. I fall upstairs, downstairs, into stuff, onto stuff, sideways, leftways, etc. I can't walk straight.
• Depth Perception...Walking into walls, doorways, missing stairs, into people, things, etc. I can literally see that I'm walking into a door way and somehow end up walking into the door frame. Completely missing the giant hole to walk through. That is my most common problem. I have to watch the floor when I walk because I miss steps, therefore I fall.
• Dizzy/Lightheaded-vertigo....I can't move too quickly any which way or I'll get either. You know the staircases that go in circles? Yeah not good. And how about hotel (or any other establishment that have elevators also) staircases...that go up and around, up and around, up and around....makes me want to vomit.
• Difficulty swallowing. Yes this does happen. I really need to chew my food better.
• Ringing in the ears/Tinnitus...ANNOYING. every once in awhile my ear will start ringing so bad I can't hear out of it. Or it will just shut out sound. Not pop like when you're sick...just stop hearing.
• Fatigue
• Slurred/Tangled speech. I get this way too often. Especially at work. I trip over my words all the time. Sometimes I just start repeating the same word over and over again and can't stop myself. "...would would would..." before I can actually get myself to stop and get out the next word.

Now that I've run through a list of symptoms...haha
There are plenty more but those are what I experience the most on a daily basis. Sounds rough right? You don't physically see this stuff. You might see me walk into a wall. Ha Ha...ok its funny. But 30 times a day. (I may be exaggerating) and it's not just being clumsy. It sucks. The head pain sucks.
I honestly hate not being able to do normal things. This is my normal. I have adapted to my own normal. I don't drink alcohol much if any due to the head pain already. I don't need more pain on top of it. I'd love to relax and have a good time. When I start to...my head kicks in and says "alright thats enough...you're doing way too much" God forbid I laugh too much, I cough or sneeze too hard, or any form of strain.
Some days the headpain is real bad. So bad to the point of vomitting. My ice pack is my best friend. If I freeze it til I can't feel it...it helps a litte. Those days, its really hard to function, but I still do to the best of my ability. If I have to work I will go to work. I will put on a fake smile and act like I'm ok. I will be cheery as hell while inside my head is screaming and pounding. Those are the days that seem to take forever too of course.

"Smiling doesn't always mean you're happy...sometimes it simply means that you are a strong person."

Above is the truth.
It is 1:45 AM. I am working night audit. I will be at work until 7am. Currently my head is ok. Just ok. My feet are tingly. My neck is stiff.

And as this is apart of how I truthfully feel and every other Chiarian out there...here is the best thing I've ever read:

Written by Carolyn Gibbons

"My name is Chiari and I am an invisible chronic illness. I am now velcroed to you for life. Others around you can’t see me or hear me, but YOUR body feels me. I can attack you anywhere and anyhow I please. I can cause your hea...

d to explode and your vision to dim.

Remember when you and Energy ran around together and had fun? I took Energy from you and gave you Exhaustion. Try to have fun now! I also took Sleep from you and in its place gave you Brain Fog - Confusion and Disorientation.

I can make you dizzy and sick; fill your ears with constant noise and a whole host of other things that no one else believes. Oh yeah, I can make you feel anxious or depressed too.

If you have something planned, or are looking forward to a great day, I can take that away too. You didn't ask for me. I chose you for various reasons and I'm here to stay!

I hear you're going to see a doctor who can't get rid of me; I'm rolling on the floor laughing - tell him to keep trying! You will have to go to many, many doctors until you find one who can help you effectively. You will be put on pain pills, sleeping pills, told you are suffering from anxiety or depression, given pills that make you tingle, stuck with needles, scanned, and when they get really desperate they'll drill holes in your head.

You'll be told to think positive while being poked, prodded, and investigated by medical students, and MOST OF ALL not taken as seriously as you feel when you cry to the doctor how depressing life is everyday.

Your family, friends and co-workers will listen to you until they just get tired of hearing about how I make you feel, and that I'm a debilitating disease. Some of them will say things like "Oh, you are just having a bad day" or "Well, remember you can't do the things you used to 20 years ago".

Some will talk behind your back while you slowly feel that you are losing your dignity trying to make them understand, especially when you are in the middle of a conversation with a person, and can't remember what you were going to say next!

In closing (I hope to keep this part secret) I guess you already found out…the only place you can get any support and understanding in dealing with me is with other people with Chiari."

 

September is Chiari Awareness Month. I am doing my part by posting everything I can on twitter, facebook, tumblr, pinterest, stumbleupon. Please help and do your part! It only takes a few seconds to share. Don't forget to LIKE Chiari-Life on facebook! Follow on Twitter @BearlyBurnt

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25 Years Young

Hey all! Sorry it has been awhile! I have been so busy and overwhelmed with real life. Since I left you last I went to the Outer Banks for a week with my boyfriend and his family. I had a great week! It went way too fast of course. Luckily, I only had 1 real bad Chiari day. The day Joe and I went to the beach was very hot and humid. I think the heat and laying out on the beach just killed me. My head messed that day up a bit. So we cut our beach time short. I ended up laying down for a few hours when we got back to the house. Overall though, I had a great time! I wish I could be back there.



At the pool soaking up the sun.

On sunday, I celebrated my 25h Birthday. We had crabs, cake, and presents of course! I had a wonderful birthday! I have pictures but they are not uploaded yet.

I've been crafting a bunch lately. I may have some of those items to share with you in the next post.

 

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The 14th Annual Horrorfind Weekend Convention is coming up this weekend. I will be working admissions again. August 31t - September 2nd at the Wyndham Gettysburg Hotel in Gettysburg, Pa.
If you're heading out for Horrorfind Weekend be sure to say hi!!

HFW Staff photo a few years ago

 

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September is coming up very soon. If you didn't know...September is Chiari Awareness Month. So what are you doing to spread awareness? Share your ideas in the comments and be sure to head over to Chiari-Life on facebook and LIKE us.
Some states have September recognized as Chiari Month. Does yours? You can check by looking through your governors page for information. Also you can check here for different bills and resolutions through the Federal and State Legislation
I found one for Pennsylvania for 2011.
I hope we can all come together and raise more awareness.
Let's get #Chiari trending on twitter for september! Be sure to add #Chiari to all of your twitter posts. Follow me @BearlyBurnt and RT #Chiari:)

Creative Chiari

Chiari Carnival #5: Creative Chiari
Topic: Created by Chiarians

I've always been creative. I've been artsy and crafty. I could honestly spend hours in A.C. Moore, Michaels, and Hobby Lobby (Which by the way is one of my new favorite stores.) I can't go into Hobby Lobby without it turning into Walmart. I head in for glue sticks or cardstock and head out with a cartfull! I love that they always have 40% - 50% off coupons too! That helps. Oh and if I go in when a good sale is running. It takes everything for me to not get anything. I seriously have a box, some drawers, and other storage that are full of randoms that could be used for any sort of crafting. Clearance finds are always great.

BearlyBurnt - Woodburned

Anywhoo. I draw, paint, cardmake, scrapbook, papermake, woodburn, sew(not to the extent of a sewing machine...I'll leave that to my sister Karen), I sculpt, I [will] cricut for many things (this will be recent as I just got one last year for christmas! Thank you Millers <3 ), shirtmaking (something I just did recently for my best friends Bachelorette party.), photography, cooking/baking (I call it creative) and I can't think of anything else.

Handdrawn - CreepyCards Christmas Exchange

Woodburned - Classic Horror Coasters

 I do have a shop on Etsy called BearlyBurnt. Though I haven't set it up to sell anything yet. I'm still working on it.

BBPhotography - Wedding Cake Yum

BBPhotography - Cupcakes (Made by Me) Bridal Shower

If you're interested in viewing all of the items I've made and have uploaded click here

BearlyBurnt Album

Crafting is relaxing, frustrating, and fun. I enjoy it. I hope to get my ideas in order and start making progress on my BearlyBurnt business.

Brave

I'm a Disney fan. Ok so I'm not just a fan. I love Disney. I'm obsessed...
I follow every Disney thing on twitter...I like all of the Disney facebook pages. My room is decorated in Disney...My dream job would be to work for Disney... you get the picture. (Wow did I say Disney enough?)

Anyways...I get the Disney Insider newsletter in my email. If you don't know there is a new movie coming out called Brave. It is featured and they have an option to "Share your Brave Story". What better way to spread awareness than telling your story to Disney.

I shared my Brave story.
Here it is: Alicia - Brain Surgery 
Please click the link and read. After you've read it...click "LIKE" and help this story get Featured!

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On another note...The Unite @ Nite walk is coming up. I will be walking June 16th with some family and friends for the Chiari & Syringomyelia Foundation! There is still time to register to walk, donate, and sponsor Team Chiari-Life Click HERE to do so:)

Also, my sister, Karen has made several awareness items which are being sold in her etsy shop. Stop over and check them out! Profits go towards the walk! Designs By Dayzi


Until next time...<3

If My Life Were a Movie...

Chiari Carnival #4: Summer 'Blog'buster
Topic: If My Life Were a Movie

For a month I've been thinking about who would play me in my movie. My first thought was Julia Roberts. I mean she's an amazing actress and the red hair. LOVE it. Then I was thinking about how my movie would play out. If I had Julia...she would play my older self. I don't know that part of my life yet. So I started focusing on who would play my younger self. I tried to think of someone who would fit me, could look like me, whose personality could fit mine. The best I came up with was Emma Watson or Alexis Bledel. They both have book nerd characters. But something about them still didn't fit. So I went to the internet and tried to find my celebrity look-a-like. Yeah I really did that. What were my results?
64% match with Charles Manson. Nice. So I picked a better picture and tried it again. I did get Alexis Bledel as a result along with Kristen Bell. I still don't feel it. Then I thought, well hell this is my movie, about me...who could play myself better than myself...? I was in a commercial as a zombie before. (It's the truth) I was also in a carpet commercial when I was little. I have experience. (HA.)

Letter to Normals

Normally I would just post a link to an interesting article I found, or quote it. But I found this to be right on target. I am going to post the entire article and a link below. This site has a lot of great information and coping advice. It is the Fibromyalgia Network. I belive this relates to those with any invisible illness/disorder/disease.
Letter to Normals: Getting Others to See Your Symptoms

"These are the things that I would like you to understand about me before you judge me...

Please understand that being sick doesn't mean I'm not still a human being. I have to spend most of my day flat on my back in bed and I might not seam like great company, but I'm still me stuck inside this body. I still worry about school and work and my family and friends, and most of the time I'd still like to hear you talk about yours too.

Please understand the difference between "happy" and "healthy". When you've got the flu you probably feel miserable with it, but I've been sick for years. I can't be miserable all the time, in fact I work hard at not being miserable. So if you're talking to me and I sound happy, it means I'm happy. That's all. I may be tired. I may be in pain. I may be sicker than ever. Please don't say, "Oh you're sounding better!" I am not sounding better, I am sounding happy. If you want to comment on that, you're welome.

Please understand that being able to stand up for five minutes, doesn't necessarily mean that I can stand up for ten minutes, or an hour. It's quite likely that doing that five minutes has exhausted my resources and I'll need to recover - imagine an athlete after a race. They couldn't repeat that feat right away either. With a lot of diseases you're either paralyzed or you can't move. With this one it gets more confusing.

Please repeat the above paragraph subsituting, "sitting up", "walking", "thinking", "being sociable", and so on... it applies to everything. That's what a fatigue based illness does to you.

Please understand that chronic illnesses are variable. It's quite possible (for me, it's common) that  one day I am able to walk to the park and back, while the next day I'll have trouble getting to the kitchen. Please don't attack me when I'm ill by saying, "But you did it before!" If you want me to do something, ask if I can and I'll tell you. In a similar vein, I may need to cancel an invitation at the last minute, if this happens please don't take it personally.

Please understand that "getting out and doing things" does not make me feel better, and an often make me seriously worse. Fibromyalgia may cause secondary depression (wouldn't you get depressed if you were stuck in bed for years on end?!) but it is not caused by depression. Telling me that I need some fresh air and exercise is not appreciated and not correct. - if I could do it, I would.

Please understand that I can't spend all of my energy trying to get well. With a short-term illness like the flu, you can afford to put life on hold for a week or two while you get well. But part of having a chronic illness is coming to the realization that you have to spend some energy on having a life now. This doesn't mean I'm not trying to get better. It doesn't mean I've given up. It's just how life is when you're dealing with a chonic illness.

If you want to suggest a cure to me, please don't. It's not because I don't appreciate the thought, and it's not because I don't want to get well. It's because I have had almost every single one of my friends suggest one at on point or another. At first I tried them all, but then I realized that I was using up so much energy trying things that I was making myself sicker, not better. If there was something that cured, or even helped, all people with fibro then we'd know about it. This is not a drug company conspiracy, there is worldwide networking (both on and off the internet) between people with Fibro, if something worked we would know.

I depend on you - peple who are not sick - for many things.

But most importantly, I need you to understand me."

(I cut out a few paragraphs as they are more specific to Fibro)

Letter to Normals

As I said last post...It's hard to understand the unknown. It's hard to understand what you've never personally experienced.

I will be walking for the Chiari & Syringomyelia Foundation's Unite@Nite Walk June 16th in my neighborhood. If you are walking Solo (as I am) or interested in joining a team, I have set up Team Chiari-Life feel free to join and help us reach our goal!!
To Donate, Register, or Sponsor please click here:
Team Chiari-Life

Check out DesignsByDayzi for Chiari Awareness items, proceeds go towards the walk!

-Alicia

When it rains, it pours

Chiari Blog Carnival #3: When it rains, it pours.
Topic: Dealing with difficult people in addition to dealing with a difficult illness.

"But you don't look sick?"
(Photo provided by Eliza Jayne Photography)

The first thing that comes to my mind is "But you don't look sick!?" Yeah, we get that alot. Chiari Malformation is considered an invisible illness because you don't usually see the symptoms on the outside.
Of course I look normal.
You can't see the pressure in my head.
You can't see that it feels like my head could explode at any minute.
You can't see that my hands and feet are numb and tingling.
I may stumble or walk into something, but I just look clumsy to you...You don't see my balance and depth perception problems.
You don't hear the ringing in my ears.
You hear my speech slurr or I trip over my words. You laugh, I laugh. But do you know why it happens? Does that come to mind when you hear it?
You don't see me almost black out from getting dizzy and lightheaded if I drive too fast over a hill.
(I know why I can't ride rollercoasters.)
I could continue to go on and on with the list.
I have tried looking at things from the opposite point of view. The other person can never fully understand what you are going through. They may try to relate by sympathizing with you over something they have gone through. "I've had surgery once. I went in to get my tonsils taken out"
Oh ok...not quite on the same plane as brain surgery. "So you're cured now that you've had surgery right?" No surgery is not a cure, just a form of treatment. "Oh."
People do not understand why surgery if its not a cure. What is the point of surgery?

When I first had major problems I went back to my family doctor a few times for "migraines". Each time I was given a different medicine or something to try. Finally he ordered an MRI after I went in and couldn't turn my head at all. I was lucky enough to be referred to a NS who knew of Chiari and wasn't afraid to work with it. He has followed up ever since. I was diagnosed in 2003.
A lot of people go through several doctors, neurosurgeons, neurologists, and other specialists before they are diagnosed.
After dignosis its a mixed feeling. You're relieved because you finally have an answer for what you're going through. But on the other hand....what do you do with it?
You barely understand it, how will anyone else? So you begin to tell your family and then your closest friends. Again...they don't really experience what you're going through. They know what you're saying. They don't feel the pain. It's hard to sympathize with the unknown.

This topic fits well with what happened two weekends ago. We had the bachelorette party for my best friend, Abby, on April 20th. We all took her out to dinner. Then we were off to the bar across the street from her house. We had a limo scheduled to pick us up about an hour into that as surprise. The limo would drive us around town to various bars for the night. Now let me first say I was the only female in the bridal party aside from the bride. Abby and I have a lot more male friends. She had me (her maid of honor) and 3 boys her bridesmen/maids. The bachelorette party was mostly men. haha.
Anways. We went throughout the night all was well. I was mostly pain-free all day. As it got closer to the end of the night...my head started. (I do not drink and did not.) It was about 12:30AM and we had about 2 hours to go. I couldn't crap out and leave. We went for 4th meal at taco bell. I didn't get anyting as I felt nauseous. I thought I was going to puke from the smell when the food got into the limo. But I was ok. Everyone was offering medicine or alcohol (lol thanks but that won't help?) and what they could do? My head continued to get worse and the pressure in the back of my head grew. We parked across from Abby's house and thanked the driver. We walked over and I knew I was about to vomit. I whipped my hair up in my hand out of my face. I projectile vomitied on the sidewalk. It was like some kind of Exorcist move. It was a good thing no one was in front of me. Abby said something like "you puked like a rock star" Everyone was like "WHOA" because it came out of nowhere. They were all trying to help hold my hair and rub my back and ask if I was ok. At that point I to be left alone for a second in case there was more.

Bridesmaids L to R:
Mike, John, Abby (Bride), Me, Brad

The good thing about it...I made it to the end of the night, Abby had a great time. And my friends actually got to see something that Chiari does to me. They were able to see a bit of the pain I was in. If they couldn't see the pain on my face...they saw it when the vomit shot out of nowhere.

Don't forget to check out the rest of the Carnival!

Unite @ Nite

Busy busy busy. I have so many things in mind to do. So many projects I want to start. You should see my notebooks and laptop bag. Filled with notes and ideas and topics etc. I'm sure half of them are repeated ideas. Every time I organize them, I start it all over again. I will get to them. (one day.)

So on top of all of the things already listed...I have registed for the Chiari & Syringomyelia Foundation's Unite @ Nite walk in June. They have a few site locations listed. If there isn't a site located near you, there is an option for a Solo Walk around your neighborhood (or whereever).
There isn't a walk near me so I signed up for the Solo Walk.

I have created a team for anyone interested in joining. You can solo walk anywhere and still join. If you'd like to register, join or sponsor my team click: Team Chiari-Life
If you'd like to help click to donate Alicia's Page

My personal goal is to raise $100.00
My team goal is to raise $500.00

Walk Details:

"unite@night will be a one mile casual evening walk, in various locations around the country, during the month of June in 2012. This walk will bring together people who are suffering with the devastating effects of Chiari malformation, syringomyelia, Ehlers-Danlos, hydrocephalus, intracranial hypertension, dysautonomia, autism, and related disorders.unite@night will support CSF Chapters to provide education and increase awareness while funding research projects that can potentially find answers to help those who are fighting these disorders.
**Raise $25 and receive an illuminated balloon**
**Raise $50 or more and receive a unite@night t-shirt and an illuminated balloon**

 To register visit http://csfinfo.org


The latest Conquer Chiari Newsletter is out.
You can find the whole newsletter here: Issue March 2012

Ray's Corner was interesting.
Dr. Ray D'Alonzo wrote on Staying out of the Waste Basket. Apparently there are conditions/disorders and such that physicians call waste basket syndromes. Basically what that means is a patient comes in with a vague list of symptoms that could be caused by a number of things. In that case it is difficult for the physician to determine the correct treatment so the patient ends up on antidepressants or pain killers and “tossed into the waste basket”.

That explains why so many Chiarians are "tossed" to another doctor to deal with symptoms and pain or even diagnosis. You go into your family doctors for headache/head pain problems.. Really it could be caused by anything. First thing that is usually done is medicine for migraines/headaches. Not an automatic MRI or testing.

In the write up, he also talks about how many Chiarians are diagnosed with multiple conditions. Whether it be depression, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, or something else. The chances are pretty slim to have One and the other as statistics go. I believe he means that you could be diagnosed with Condition A and Condition B where both can cause the same symptoms. You may have been told by the same or different doctors you have both A & B. Where maybe you only have A but you can't really see if you have B as their symptoms are the same. (Did that make any sense?) It may be best to go to a Chiari specialist (which is a good idea one way or another IMO) who has dealt with Chiari patients constantly over a period of time. This person may be able to differentiate between Condition A & B.

It is something to think about. Definitely read his whole article through. The link can be found in the newsletter above!
Before I go....I hope everyone has a safe and Happy Easter!!

Don't forget to LIKE Chiari-Life on Facebook and share the page!!
Follow me on Twitter!
-Alicia

PS. April's Chiari Carnival will be out at the end of the month!

Ides of Mayhem

Chiari Blog Carnival #2 - Ides of Mayhem
Topic: Alternatives to breaking down, falling apart or cracking up. 

Hmmm Alternatives to breaking down, falling apart, or cracking up....
I'm having a blank and don't know where to start.
Sometimes you just have to break down, as with any other situation, you can't hold in all your frustration and confusion. You can't hold in your tears. The longer you hold something in, the harder it will be when it all comes out. We are strong. We hold a lot in. Finding other Chiarians to confide in is a great way to release a lot of the frustration you may not be able to get out around others who don't quite understand.

When I have a bad Chiari day...thats when I want to break down, I want to cry and fall apart. I want to scream and yell "WHY ME?!" I want to break stuff, punch things, and go into hysterics for someone to understand what I'm going through. Why can't I have a normal life? Why can't I go out anytime I want? Why do I have to lay around and be miserable?

There are days I have to keep it together when I want to break down. I have to keep it together to go to work. I work in customer service so I have no choice but to put on a happy face. I have to keep moving forward.

On my good Chiari days...well I want to do everything. I want to get out all that couldn't be done on the bad days. But on the other hand I can't over strain myself. That will cause a bad day. I can't over exert myself...again will cause a bad day. Hell...I could sneeze or cough too hard..there goes my day. There is also the lack of energy I have that keeps me from doing a lot. The fatigue I get.
The good days give me inspiration to keep going. It helps me to help others in the same situation. Despite the bad days there will be a good day here and there. The only thing we can do is make the most of it.

For example: Last weekend... St. Patricks Day. All the women in my family on my moms side go down to OCMD for our Girls Weekend same time every year. Friday totally kicked me in the ass. Not only did I not drink any alcohol...(Carded for a DIET COKE....side note there.) and started off fine...had to leave the bar early because Chiari kicked in and said FU you're not having a good time tonight. It was nice out most of the day and a bit rainy at night.
Saturday all day was great..my head was good to me. We all went out to the parade, to the boardwalk, to dinner and then to the Sandbar as usual. By this time my head was still being good to me. Again decided no alcohol...my head was being good I didn't want to chance it. Diet coke and water all night. Successful head day. It was misty and chilly all day. You can't predict it.

Cracking up.. I'm not sure how to take this one...it could mean a lot of different things.
Going crazy? Insane? Oh yeah that happens... The pain, frustration, confusion...all of it will drive you mad. What you need is support. You need other people going through the same thing to vent it all out. I have that. www.chiarisupport.org is a place I found and it is growing!
I also have Joe. He makes me laugh. This is the cracking up in a different sense. He helps me laugh at the weird things I do. Chiari comes with a lot of off the wall symptoms. Walking into walls...yeah my depth perception isn't great at all. Speech is messed up. I slur or repeat words over and over. I don't feel insulted when Joe laughs at it.
There are others that don't understand or won't take the time to understand.

I read. Harry Potter is my addiction. Disney is an obsession. I will get lost in books or animation and forget about the world. Thats my alternative.

But how do you handle living with Chiari, wanting to break down, fall apart and crack up when you can't escape? You do all three. Just make sure you have someone there to pick you back up. Don't fall over the edge. You need to know you are strong! If we couldn't handle it...we wouldn't have been given this life to fight for. There are others out there going through much worse.

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